haha..nth much to post about. jus that now i'm having mixed feelings.

excitement. joy.
fear. senses.

i duno wad you feel. guess you feel wad i felt that time. though i was clear. but now i'm lost again. i'm afraid of the future. yet my hearts tell me to plunge into it, not deprive myself of the opportunity and how i feel exactly. now i'm sure. yet i'm afraid wad i want is not wad is meant to be. wad if things would be like the past? i don want that.

maybe i shouldnt think of that possibility? i duno. it may jus be another illusion. for all i know. you've left completely. haz..nvm.

nth much to blog bout actually.. jus that i want to stop thinking of that possibility. cos the more you think, the more you'll get hurt. and i don want that anymore.

my heart and senses!
stop this conflict already!
don torture my soul like that..
i cant take more.
i don know who to listen to.
"love is blind"
i know that.
i don want to expect and lose it.
i don want.
pls.
l.i.m.e